save me from hell

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 05:33:01 GMT

The Lily of The Valley: return of happiness,
sweetness, humility.

What Does Your Birth Flower Say About You?
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Sun, 23 Oct 2005 05:25:45 GMT

IM CHANGING MY LJ. I HAVE A NEW ONE. PLEASE ADD ME .

SAND_BUNNY6

I suck!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 04:28:46 GMT

Why does everyone have to keep telling me all of my faults. Do they really think that i don't know that i'm a screw up? I just can't take it i hate myslef so much i just want to curl up in a ball and die. Why must people who say they care about me always make me feel like shit? Does it make them feel better about themselves? I can't take it anymore, I need a good friend just to talk to. But I lost most of my freinds when I stopped doing drugs. And all the other friends i have have their own problems and i don't want to push my problems on them. I just need one person to talk to. To understand where i'm coming from. God i hate myself so much I can barely look at myself in the mirror and I really don't get what kevin see in me. God I love him so much but I don't deserve him, I don't deserve the way he loves me. I want so despertely for people to like me that I try to hard then i become annoying and that's really what it is I just want to have good friends like Sean and Ashley are to kevin. they are such good friends to him but they never get to hang out and i hate that. I know that I'm not their ideal person for him but I'd really like the chance to become friends with them. I just don't know how to change their mind about me. Any suggestions? Oh god Please help me.Why am I rambling? I just need to be able to call someone other then Kevin to cry to. I love him and am glad he puts up with my crying and bitching, but I can't keep calling him all the time and only using him as my gateway?

I have never hated myself as much as I do right this moment. I thought that i was doing so much better I even called myself pretty ocne. then it hit me like a pile of brick and i can't live like this. I really just want to curl up in a ball and die. I don't want to live like this i just don't know how to change. All I've ever had was bad thoughts about myself and I honsety don't know how to think nice things about myself. What do i do? How do I fix something thats always been in my head? Please Lord send someone to help me. God I'm rambling. People who read will think I'm really insane. I have to go now good bye everyone and thank you for listening(reading). Please comment the more help the better.

"Wreck Of The Day"

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cuz love doesnt hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
All my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

I've tripped again and things are starting to get interesting
Don't give me choices cause I can't decide
My mind is soaked in words
I've come to terms with all my insecurities
And purity's no friend of mine

And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me

You're kinda cool but I know better than to break the rules
Of messin' with a lesson that I'll never learn
I'll go from bad to worse and later back to better
But I'll never better bridges that I'm bent to burn

And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me

This is a warning
This is a warning
This is a warning

And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me
If you're trying to change me
If you're trying to change me

hello everyone just a quick update.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 15:32:39 GMT

ok so kevin and i are good. a year and 4 months now he doesn't want to count the week we were apart. i'm sick and tired and have to rush to work now but i'll update more after work good bye. love you all

what candy are you?

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 04:19:09 GMT

My mom is

Butterfinger

They call you sticky fingers for a reason!

What Kind of Candy Are You?

mine

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 15:52:45 GMT

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 15:11:28 GMT

ren faire is in two days and i'm very sick. i have 2 ear infections and an upper respority infection. i feel so bad.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 15:35:50 GMT

WOMEN

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up for injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without new shoes so their children can have them.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all SIZES, in all colors

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!

Women do more than just give birth.

They bring joy and hope.

They give compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have a lot to say and a lot to give.

This has been sent to you from someone who respects you as a woman. Pass it along to your woman friends to remind them how amazing they are .....Keep scrolling, there's more!!!!

IT'S BEAUTIFUL WOMEN MONTH

IT'S GOOD TO BE THE WOMAN

We got off the Titanic first.

We can scare male bosses with mysterious gynecological disorder excuses.

Taxis stop for us.

We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.

No fashion faux pas we make could ever rival The Speedo.

We don't have to pass gas to amuse ourselves.

If we forget to shave, no one has to know.

We can congratulate our teammate without ever touching her rear.

We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.

We have the ability to dress ourselves.

We can talk to people of the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.

There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.

We'll never regret piercing our ears.

We can fully assess a person just by looking at their shoes.

We can make comments about how silly men are in their presence, because they aren't listening anyway.

I DID NOT WRITE THIS!!!!

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 15:12:58 GMT

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were
allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans

Repost this if you believe gay-marriage should be legal!!

Love is love.
If your happy your happy.
Happiness is a rareity in life with love being even more scarec. If you find someone that makes you happy and you grow to love each other then go for it no matter if there a different sex, race, whatever. Life is short. So be happy and love who you can.

(Oh, and by the way, this is a stright girl talken, and this is for all of the wonderful people I know that live "alternet lifestyles". I love you all, and wish you happiness and love in life no matter what ingorent fool may say other wise, do what makes you happy, thats what really counts!!)

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 15:25:10 GMT

Your Mood Ring is Orange

Stimulating ideas
Daring
Full of desires

Mood Ring Generator

I never!!!! Well re faire is in 8 days and i'm freaking out.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 00:53:15 GMT

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

my new job is great all the dogs i could want.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 01:41:25 GMT

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

that's funny.

(
You're Exotic Dancer Barbie. You have some moves,
and will do anything for a few bucks. Take it
off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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hey look she topless

kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Sexy Silk

You are Sexy Silk underwear. Your only purpose is
to be hot and sexy, and you love that you are.
Your owner usually also love that you make them
feel special. They wear you to show off for
other people. Mainly for that guy/girl they met
at the club yesterday. Other underwear are
often jealous of you. It's good to be confident
in yourself, but your pride can sometimes be
too much for others to take.

What type of underwear would you be?
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You are Lust!
What it is:The least worst of the sins.It is
the desire for sex even if they're not married
to you.
Punishment in Hell:Smothered in fire and
brimstone.
Animal:Cow.
Color:Blue.
Demon:Asmodai.

Which Of the 7 Deadly Sins Are You?
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heheeh lust.)

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 22:21:31 GMT

I don't know why she hates me. my own grandma hates me. i don't know what i did or how i did it but she hates me. now she says i'm not allowed to eat the food here.

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:59:42 GMT

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 20:34:39 GMT

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 19:26:24 GMT

kevin and i are back together

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 22:10:52 GMT

so it might be totally stupid of me but i want to get back together with kevin.
i feel so empty without him so lost.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 21:24:53 GMT

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.
You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

You Are a Very Bad Girl

You are 10% Good and 90% Bad
As they say, good girls go to heaven and bad girls go everywhere!
You make most bad girls look like angels - and have a hell of a time along the way.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Your Nail Polish Color is Magenta

How you're unique: You're confident - and you show everyone the true you

Why your style rocks: You have the attitude to carry the most outrageous outfits off

What this color says about you: "Look at me. I know you want to!"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 20:57:39 GMT

1st. Get PEN and PAPER (or just open up notepad or some other similar program)

2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW

3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results.

4th. SCROLL DOWN

ONE LINE AT THE TIME DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 2, WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.

4. WRITE ANYONE'S NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY...) next to 4, 5, 6.

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, 11

ARE YOU READY? HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME

1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2

(or don't tell anyone; I certainly don't care) (since I put this inthe LJ you do not have to.

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7

4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS THE YOUR LUCKY STAR

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3

8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7

9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND

10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE

11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 16:11:16 GMT

you area half-dark/angel, you are an angel who is
curious abou the darker things in life

which half-breed are you???????
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i'm still here and still depressed.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 21:25:05 GMT

well kevin broke up with me today. have to go bye

the thing is

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 14:17:25 GMT

we got into yet another fight last night. i feel some of the things he's saying are really hurtful and he says i'm overreacting. i don't know what to do anymore.

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 02:34:33 GMT

i ahte my house. noone wants me here and they can't even hide the fact they don't want me here. i hate it.

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 17:54:20 GMT

ok i'm off to utah. see you when i come back. hope they don't try to change me.

Hey yall

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 03:13:32 GMT

ok so life just sucks. being 17 and working two jobs sucks. having to decide when to be "over" with Kevin sucks. i just don't want to end it. it's been great, even though his friends hate me. still don't know why. hey friends of my boyfriend why do you hate me?
anyways, so i'm going to utah on wenesday. yeah.

comment all you want. oh and anser my questions.